Waiting

I wait. I wait for people to understand. I wait for people to try. I wait for things to get better. I wait for the love of my life. I wait for her to forgive me. I wait a smile. I wait for a hug. I wait for a glimpse of the love I know is there. I wait for a eternity because she hates me. She despises me. She has forgotten about me. All I have is a memory and a particle glimpse of hope. Dreams are where my happiness is for my reality is hell.

In the darkness no one can see tears

Alone i sit at night,, wishing , wanting, remembering, regretting, and accepting!  for I look at the moon, and the night, and the darkness it seems so peaceful, so real... but the reality is SHE IS GONE!!

 I miss her laughs, her smart ass mouth, her smile , her eyes, her bouncing walk, her shuffling, her dancing,, i even miss her music,,,,

MUSIC was something we agreed upon and argued over,, she loved what i loved in music, and i learned to  appreciate what she loved..  when i hear her songs, i dream that they were our songs..

i miss everything about her... somedays i wish we would just fight,,, cuz at least then,, she was around, and yelling at me..... but now,,, even that is gone,,,

I LOVE HER SO MUCH,,,, I MISS HER,, I MISS MY BEST FRIEND

I hear she is doing well,,, busy and happy at work,, got her own apartment,, she has accomplished so much.. I am so PROUD OF HER

My Torment , My Hell

I am a tortured soul,,,My torment is due to my crimes of Love and Lust,, I Love Her Forever

Ashley's Song is PERFECT

You leave me like an addict, always wanting more
But when I break free the sirens sounds and call me back to shore
The bottom of the ocean is the safest place to be
I still swim towards the surface just to breathe your misery

I get so lost and so confused, I'm just so tired of bein' used
I wish you'd just make up your mind, my sweet unvalentine
I'm just so tired and so afraid that you might leave me everyday
I wish you'd just make up your mind, my sweet unvalentine

You run just like a rabbit, and I chase you like a fool
But this fool I hate, I can't forsake, this fools in love with you
I'm I wasting my time, hanging by your threads?
Make up your mind, cut these spider webs

I get so lost and so confused, I'm just so tired of bein' used
I wish you'd just make up your mind, my sweet unvalentine
I'm just so tired and so afraid that you might leave me everyday
I wish you'd just make up your mind, my sweet unvalentine

Say that you'll be mine
Cut me with your sweet caress, kill me with your tenderness
I don't care what you do, as long as I'm with you

The bottom of the ocean is the safest place to be
I still swim towards the surface just to breathe your misery

I get so lost and so confused, I'm just so tired of bein' used
I wish you'd just make up your mind, my sweet unvalentine
I'm just so tired and so afraid that you might leave me everyday
I wish you'd just make up your mind, my sweet unva





SONG FROM THE AMAZING BAND  "NEW YEARS DAY"

The Beauty of THE MACABRE

CHICAGO has some ARTISTICALLY DARK CLASS

The WIT hotel in CHICAGO had some icons of mine, printed on the bindings of books in the hotel Library!!  FUCKING CLASSIC

Midnight rendevous

 Bj Betts, Shawn Barber, Dan Smith and I @ Memoir Tattoo