In the darkness no one can see tears

Alone i sit at night,, wishing , wanting, remembering, regretting, and accepting!  for I look at the moon, and the night, and the darkness it seems so peaceful, so real... but the reality is SHE IS GONE!!

 I miss her laughs, her smart ass mouth, her smile , her eyes, her bouncing walk, her shuffling, her dancing,, i even miss her music,,,,

MUSIC was something we agreed upon and argued over,, she loved what i loved in music, and i learned to  appreciate what she loved..  when i hear her songs, i dream that they were our songs..

i miss everything about her... somedays i wish we would just fight,,, cuz at least then,, she was around, and yelling at me..... but now,,, even that is gone,,,

I LOVE HER SO MUCH,,,, I MISS HER,, I MISS MY BEST FRIEND

I hear she is doing well,,, busy and happy at work,, got her own apartment,, she has accomplished so much.. I am so PROUD OF HER

My Torment , My Hell

I am a tortured soul,,,My torment is due to my crimes of Love and Lust,, I Love Her Forever

Ashley's Song is PERFECT

You leave me like an addict, always wanting more
But when I break free the sirens sounds and call me back to shore
The bottom of the ocean is the safest place to be
I still swim towards the surface just to breathe your misery

I get so lost and so confused, I'm just so tired of bein' used
I wish you'd just make up your mind, my sweet unvalentine
I'm just so tired and so afraid that you might leave me everyday
I wish you'd just make up your mind, my sweet unvalentine

You run just like a rabbit, and I chase you like a fool
But this fool I hate, I can't forsake, this fools in love with you
I'm I wasting my time, hanging by your threads?
Make up your mind, cut these spider webs

I get so lost and so confused, I'm just so tired of bein' used
I wish you'd just make up your mind, my sweet unvalentine
I'm just so tired and so afraid that you might leave me everyday
I wish you'd just make up your mind, my sweet unvalentine

Say that you'll be mine
Cut me with your sweet caress, kill me with your tenderness
I don't care what you do, as long as I'm with you

The bottom of the ocean is the safest place to be
I still swim towards the surface just to breathe your misery

I get so lost and so confused, I'm just so tired of bein' used
I wish you'd just make up your mind, my sweet unvalentine
I'm just so tired and so afraid that you might leave me everyday
I wish you'd just make up your mind, my sweet unva





SONG FROM THE AMAZING BAND  "NEW YEARS DAY"